Quote of the day!

Quote of the day from jimmy...."Baby ua so expensive that ua priceless." :D

I got this while i was at work and I'm so in love with James Mugwe!

Confirmation from God.....I saw 7 yes SEVEN black and white couples today alone!

The proposal

Early in the week last week I was up texting Jimmy at around 5am. Then he phones. Yes at five in the morning. I pick up and I'm quiet as I expect most of my family to sleep through that loud ring. Hello, I say. Jimmy talks quietly to in more of a mocking manner. His voice goes serious. "Lorna, do you think it will be possible for us to spend the rest of our lives working as one unit." And sat for a second thinking about this decision. It's huge. It's kind of a big deal. I say to him. "Jimmy, I think it would be a mistake if i were to answer with anything but YES!" Jimmy says, "That wasn't my proposal." I say, "oh." And Jimmy says "I'm down on one knee. I can't believe I'm doing this. Lorna Wagner will you take me to be your husband.." Without him finishing his sentence I say "YES!" He continues, "I'm not finished yet, Will you take me to be your husband? To marry me and walk through hardships and trials with me? I Love you more than I have ever loved anyone." Once again I say, "Yes, I will walk through trials and hold your hand through hardships. Yes, I will Marry you." He makes a kissing sound on the phone and I make one back. We talk for a bit longer and hang up after saying, "I love you!"

"I love you!"

"I love you more! "

"I love you most!"

"Goodmorning"

"Goodnight"

I am sitting here this morning it's 3:14am and I'm sitting up in my bed. I had a nightmare. I dreamt of being at the Nairobi airport and you were nowhere to be seen. I couldn't find you and the people i talked to didn't speak English and i couldn't ask them in Swahili because all my Swahili went out the window with the panic. As I'm stuck here, it feels dark in the middle of the day. I don't know what to do.

I wake up and that's why I'm sitting here right now. I SMS you to make sure you're still alive and I receive a message and I fall back asleep. Later I wake up and tell you about this dream and your response is " Eishh!! What? the devil is a liar i pray:devil u idiot u hve foothold in my marriage leave my wife alone i rebuke ua evil seed of fear and plant de seed of hope and a future upon our life in Jesus mighty name AMEN!! baby i love you always and even if i have 2 walk 2 Nairobi i will u r mine forever."

I am settled by this but his promise of forever is slightly unsettling. Not even in marriages do they promise forever. Just "until death do us part". We'll see how things go. I want until death do us part.

:D

The question

As I prepare for camp I begin to wonder if it is responsible of me to go to camp. I am a grown up now and I have others to think about. I have a home full of children in Kenya to think about. I have a man in Kenya who is worried about not being able to come to Canada to marry me because of finances. Is it responsible for me to go to camp if i make less than 2000 dollars. I cannot afford that. Do I trust in God now or do I get this job that i have an interview for in two hours. What is the most responsible thing? I think I know. To get the job and work full time all summer long. That is the most responsible thing I can can do as I owe 3 grand and have a house of Children on the other side of the world. How do i let the camp down though? I am so confused why must i have so many decisions. Lord make them for me. I need to hear your voice. Today if i get the job it's no camp for me and if i don't it's camp for me. That's the agreement I'm making and I need you to guide him to hire me or not. That's that!

I love James Mugwe and I want to make decisions with him as well.

-Lorna Wagner.

A Love story

As I look up this adorable black man walks by. He's got diamond earings in his ears and an adorable smile. His hair was dreaded and he looked smart. He waves hello to his friend wearing a navy blue pin striped long sleeved dress shirt. I couldn't contain myself. I said to my Kenyan friend that guy is cute. She, being on a mission to find me a man decides that this man was it. She trotted on after him and only moments later i see them looking up at me. I quickly run out of sight but it's too late she's told him and in front of his friend too. I'm so angry with this girl, Irene, yet still I'm intrigued. I peak around the large white Toyota van and am startled by a man standing there. What do i do now? Where do I go now? I can't just leave he's standing right here. I look up at his face and it's somebody completely different. It's his friend, Jimmy, the guy who had lead us in singing that morning. He smiles down at me and says," So your friend Irene told me you think i'm cute? Is that true you think i'm cute?" All I could think at this point is she told the wrong guy. I say,"sure."

He replies with, "Since you think i'm cute i think you're cute also." I look at him and smile. Maybe Irene did tell the right guy. "where are you staying?"

"Love Mercy." I say. A compound near the fireplace. A church where Jimmy leads worship.

"I'll be by tonight to find you, well to find everyone else too but mainly you." He says with a smile on his face. Inside I just want to scream. This is weird this is just so strange. He walks away and we all pile in the vans. I'm thinking there's no way he's coming tonight.

I pray, "Lord your will be done."

Later that evening I'm sitting with Taia my best friend, a growth to my hip :D, when all of a sudden in walks Jimmy. I'm thinking "CRAP NO WAY!" I look at Taia after he shakes my hand.

We run to the bedroom. I couldn't believe he actually came. I didn't know what to do. I took a guess and grabbed the guitar from the living room and sat down in a corner and began worshiping God. I open my eyes to see he's sitting right in front of me with his eyes closed. My heart skips a beat. I close my eyes and continue and the next thing I know I hear a drumming. It sounds good but I stop and look at him in the eyes. I can see his heart. It's right out there. An amazing man sitting right infront of me. Then he says.

"I know Irene was talking to Newton but I needed an excuse to talk to you."

For the next couple days everything was great. He came around alot and one night as he was leaving I walked him to the door and gave him a hug and he kissed my neck and my knees went weak and an old song popped into my head, "I'm weak in the kneees for you..." I understood it finally.

This is the beginning of a great relationship of love.