quite a little big move

Well I have come to a point in my life when I have said " God, I will go!" and he has chosen me to reach out physically to the poor and hungry. And to the widows and the orphans. To get married is awesome it's certainly what I want. That is the reason I'm going. The sub reasons I am going out weigh the main reason. To bring the hope of the nation Jeasu into every home. 3 months will soon go by quickly as I expect them to. As planned I will leave the country and possibly never return. This as expected is going to be hard, unexpected is the level of difficulty. My heart aches as I see my mother cry. She's so afraid that she will never see me again. I've embraced this painful thought and I hate it. The hug of a mother is far more comforting than that of even the most wonderful husband! In 109 days I will get on a plane and get off 2 days later in what will become my new home for the rest of my life. I am very scared I will admit that but there is not a doubt in my mind about this! To God be the glory and may his will be done in my life!