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Well,

I had a great day today. However it was topped with a little bit of a bummer. I called Jimmy but he was to busy to talk to me. :( I am really hating this. Being so far away feels like I have a fatal round of heartbreak. Everyday I wake up wondering if he will call. Knowing that he loves me so much and yet still hoping that we are poor.

talking about KCC breaks my heart. I have been pushed out of KCC because they say Jimmy was a bad idea. The did not support me from the start. They don't like the idea of meeting the right person on a missions trip...IT'S NOT LIKE I PLANNED THIS! or was ever looking for it on this trip. I was looking for God. I found God. Then God sent me a husband. And KCC did not like the husband. I didn't care. Jimmy was and is sent to me from God. God promised I would find a husband by the end of this year if i would seek him. Well I was busy seeking him and I found Jimmy. I don't understand WHY KCC thinks i went wrong when LOVE was shown and given.

Great part of my day was receiving a phone call from IRENE saying BABY GIRL I'm at Walmart come get me!!! :D She's sitting in my room right now!

Well.

God bless.

quite a little big move

Well I have come to a point in my life when I have said " God, I will go!" and he has chosen me to reach out physically to the poor and hungry. And to the widows and the orphans. To get married is awesome it's certainly what I want. That is the reason I'm going. The sub reasons I am going out weigh the main reason. To bring the hope of the nation Jeasu into every home. 3 months will soon go by quickly as I expect them to. As planned I will leave the country and possibly never return. This as expected is going to be hard, unexpected is the level of difficulty. My heart aches as I see my mother cry. She's so afraid that she will never see me again. I've embraced this painful thought and I hate it. The hug of a mother is far more comforting than that of even the most wonderful husband! In 109 days I will get on a plane and get off 2 days later in what will become my new home for the rest of my life. I am very scared I will admit that but there is not a doubt in my mind about this! To God be the glory and may his will be done in my life!

owned

Today as I sat at work this guy came in and began to talk to me his smell was dirty urine and booz. His eyes were a cool color of green, they were darting around the room as if he were checking out the store yet still stairing at me. He asked me how business was and his breath reeked of alcohol and morning breath. He was wearing three jackets and each of them were dirt. The bottom was a thick sweater and followed by a Jean jacket and on the top layer he wore a filthy, what used to be grey, winter jacket. The man looked into my eyes and talked directly to me. As his eyes continued to meet mine I could feel a spirit of fear enter the room. It made my heart beat faster and my pupils dialate. As soon as the man left I felt a fear in me. Right away I rebuked it! Laughed in it's face and said. Silly spirit of fear... You can't get me like that.... I'm wearing the armor of God! You can't break it it's thicker than the mountains. He's made it unbreakable and unshakable! You just got powned newbcake!